Being Happy
“Happiness often sneaks in a door you did not think was Open” – John Barrymore
Im writing this article a little late this week as work and life did not give me a time a
little earlier . However , when waking up this morning – I came to hear the sad news
about Robin Williams. Now I am not a movie guru and I could not sit here and mention to
you every act that Robin was in, though I do remember him in the movies that I have watched
and he stands out most for me in Patch Adams.
No I am not writing a tribute to Robin as I am sure there will be 100 other tributes for
him that would be better, but I do want to touch on something that does touch closer to
my heart …. Depression …..
Over the last 4 years it is something that has been close to my heart as a subject. I had
a fiance and things didn’t work out and we ended up splitting our ways. However before
splitting up , I tried my best to keep us together and to fight for us, however it came at
a great cost – it drained me emotionally , which is hard to believe especially as I don’t
share much with people and I don’t ever share with anyone anymore .
That emotional drain, left me in a very dark place and though I never tried to do something
extreme such as ending things, I did have those dark thoughts. And there were days where
trying to get out of bed was as difficult for me as trying to pick up a 100 kg dumbbell.
Trying to explain to you depression is something that is as difficult as trying to explain
to a blind person how the colour blue looks like. I am very fortunate though, because even
though I never spoke about my feelings to my best friend, he picked up and I am sure in his
heart he knew that I was not 100% and he just pushed me and pushed me into new things.
I can sit here today and say that for now I am in a good place, those dark thoughts don’t
ever leave you – though I know now how to deal with them. The trick – in my personal
option is to find something positive , be it a small thing such as an idea or a sport
or a goal and dedicate yourself to that 100%, no matter how difficult it may feel today.
Take things day by day and push yourself to that thing, that lifeline and claw your way
through it. And find someone and be open with them, it doesn’t have to be a parent or
family member, but just one person to help you keep motivation when you feel you are
slipping down that lifeline.
For those of you who need to talk to someone, here is a list of help lines available to you
: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_suicide_crisis_lines and for my fellow South
Africans : http://www.sadag.org/
On a lighter note – the English Premier League is starting in 5 days and I am completely
stoked. I love the game and I love the emotions that the game brings with it
the anxiety , nervousness , excitement, happiness and yes sometimes sadness.
Until next time , I wish you all peace and prosperity
R.I.P – Robin Williams
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